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sorry........  its a word i've used frequently in the past 2 days. the word sorry will be with me for a long long time. i have caused alot of pain and trouble for many people, i have broken the hearts of my family, friends and all who truly care about me. im sorry.  i want to apologise once again to justin, he's family, he's recording lable and to justin fans. im sorry.
for the mistakes that i've done, for all the wrongs that i've done, i will take full responsibility, whatever it may be ,i will accept. i cant ask for forgiveness from anybody....... as i still dont know whether i myself can forgive myself.
 

Hello  guys ! how have you been ? 
I'm  interested in shiny watch!!!!!!This brand my dude poki  introduce to me, you will see it later in Taiwan too!
ooooh.. by the way this watch also appears in the concert at HK  can you find it ? hahaha
 

i would like to say soli soli soli to those who are worried about me. im ok!
just afew stitches to my right  hand. which i got from an ACCIDENT during my birthday party....
not like some of the news said about me being in a FIGHT....  trust me im fine.
im going to kl and guangzhou to continue on with work...this is not going to stop me.... i do keep promises. my face is unscratched in anyway...not like the news said. im still going to perform, and if you dont believe that im telling the truth...then come to my shows and see me live in person.... no bruise no cuts no scars on my face.
i just wished people and the media would start to BELIEVE me. AND THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO STILL BELIEVES IN ME.......  THANK YOU.

（此篇小編翻譯自Gary傳送的手機簡訊）
他離開得太突然...
但他永遠不會被我們遺忘，是永遠的流行音樂天王。他擁有一顆純真的心，他所說的、他的一舉一動，他的音樂、他的夢想，以及他希望世界可以更美好的夢想，啟發了整個世界。
我想，上帝太愛他了，所以選擇把他找回了天堂,那個真正屬於他的地方，畢竟這個世界有許多的仇恨、許多痛苦，還有許多磨難。
從今天起，6月27號這一天，我們將稱他為"麥克傑克森日"，提醒世界上的人們緊握著彼此的手，一起用愛治癒這個世界。
gone too sonn...
but will never be forgotten. hewasnt just the king of pop. he was a man with a heart so pure... he' s music and he' s actions, he' s music and he 's dream of making this world a better place inspired the whole world.
i guess god loved him so much that hedecided to bring him home, back to heaven where michael jackson belong. so much hate in this world, so much suffering, so much pain...Let us use this day to remind eachother that we need to hold  eachothers hands and start to heal the world.
starting from today, june 26 2009. the michael jackson day.

 
good day.....hahah i just watched the new movie " the
hangover " the movie brought back alot of memories...some crazy times i
had...the stupid stuff that i did, its so funny.
my birthday is
coming soon, so i've been thinking.....maybe its time to do something
wild and crazy!!!  hahah i remember the times i was in new
zealand...drinking with my friends...gosh it seemed like it was just
lastweek!
the movie really brought me back to the old days. what was the craziest, wildest thing you've done in the past?
if you share your memories with me, i just might share mine with you...and i did alot of crazy sh/t in the past!!!hahahah 

have you watched the new  掌文 mv? im trying to write an ending to the story....
have
you any ideas on how it should end? i have a great ending in mind, but
i would love to hear what you think the ending should be. i hope you
all liked the 20secs commercial...hahah i thought of the slogan...
i
wish people would give second chances more often to those who made
mistakes in the past. we all make mistakes and i know it takes alot of
courage to ask for forgiveness and it also takes alot of heart to
forgive. but at the end of the day we all live and breath in the same
place. why not try to get along and why not help eachother out, you
never know when you will need help someday....maybe its tommorrow!

one of my best friend's mother passed away 2 days ago.
i had the honour to meet he's mom afew years ago, though i didnt know her well but she was a nurse and a very kind hearted person. but one thing that i know for sure is that she raised a kind, smart, talented and caring son. her son...... who saved me from taking my own life few years ago while i was going through one of the hardest time of my life.
i never really knew how to thank him apart from telling him how i really treasure him as a friend and a brother.....seeing him go through such a hard time i was helpless.... i felt so sad because there wasnt anything within my power  to take away the pain he is going through...... it got me thinking... sometimes i take things for granted, im selfish, im stubborn, im forgetful..... i dont appreciate people around enough........
so i told  myself today that from now on i will live to appreciate, live to care, live to share and live to love. mother is the most sacred person in the world, i realised that the best way to thank this friend of mine is to truly live a complete life, to love whole heartedly, to share unconditionally. this is the only way to repay the man who saved me.

loneliness gives you courage to love. it sounds weird doesnt it?
there are many things and moments in life which are unavoidable, what is happiness without sadness? what is pain without pleasure? what is fear without courage?
the fear of loneliness.............. i've realised that the MR lonlely within me comes visit me from time to time... i was afraid of him, but this fear of lonliness soon made me realised that he ( mr lonely) gives us courage to find love or to  take chances with love and never again avoid it. the fear of being alone actually turned into the strength of not wanting to be alone, the courage to fall in love again.
shirman1412, i have read your letter and read your story, what you have been through is sad, i know your heartbroken..... but think again.... i have been through similar situation, there are so many people who has gone through what you've gone through and i believe in the future there will be more cases like yours, we are all human beings, all learning as we grow, we are all students of a thing called " life "  learn from all your right and wrong moments, learn from all your pleasures and pain, learn from your fear and courage........ learn to really live. learn to face your oen inner mr lonley.

hello ladies and gentleman.....
 how has 2009 been for you? i just finished writing another song....  i still feel like i can kick in afew more before the chinese new year...  you might like it, you might not... but i hope its another useful song by me. to singapore friends.... thank you for the wonderful new years eve... i had so much fun even if i wasnt even drunk!!! ( hmm...........)  for those who are worried about my new album... DONT BE... its done... i just need some touching up here and there... maybe add another new song. this album is either gonna be a kick ass album or its gonna be  the album that kicks my ass!! hahahah with you all supporting me i dont think i'll get kicked in the ass....( hope not). through out this year i will be less and less on tv and newspaper i think... but i promise to increase my live performances where we get more up close and personal experiences.  thank you once again for accepting who i am, me being me.  hahah ( a jerk) hahahah as each day goes by, i will learn more about myself and you, you will learn more about me and about yourself...  we can grow together... tho i will try to look young forever for you guys!!! hahah lotions and cream everynite... spa treatment hahah joking la...  its a natural thing to grow old,  there is a beauty in growing old...( yeah rite)  I DONT WANT TO LOOK OLD!!! but i do want to feel maturer as you all know that i act like a little boy sometime......  the moodswings...temper... etc....  well if you dont like me....................  then....... think hard and then find a way to like me!!! hahahah  sorry for the bad joke.....  and im not even drunk yet... i didnt even drink!  some tips botox do work on some people..... hee hee to my older friends out there.........
 
love and peace

today is the 26th of dec 2008............................
i spent christmas eve and christmas day at home, wish you guys had a great year and hope that the coming year will be another fun and exciting year. just afew more days then its 2009.... gosh im still perfecting my new album right now, i want the next album to be remembered as the year gary grew up and became a real man... hahaha many things have changed and no doubt many more changes will come in the future... i am looking forward to many more years of sharing my music, my thoughts, ideas and strength.  as we all know that 2009 is going to be a real tough year for everyone, but i do believe if we hang on and help eachother out we can all get through it. ... winners never quit, quitters never win....i will be glad  to spend more time on this blog to share our happiness or sadness. 2009.................  its a year of courage, love, peace and sharing....  lets share our way through 2009.
PEACE ..........